i don't wanna be like my parents

no i'm not rebellious or anything. my parents are really good people, just that i don't like the way they bring me up. i don't like how my mum uses negative motivation, like 'why can't u be like lan zhong zhen and score 100', when i scored 99. i dun like how praises are seldom given, even when  they are due. Thats y i grew up thinking i need only constructive criticism. i don't need praises either, i just need some support.
but here i am subconsciously doing the same thing to my sis. i'm ever discouraging to her, always picking on her bad habits, in a hope that she realises them and change for the better. i just remembered how it feels to be at the other end. i will not do it again. i will exude positivity.

The Adventure continues as i seek for my passion in life

Its hard to find someone with the same mindset

it really is. no one is as crazy, as spontaneous, as daring, as gutsy. nobody dares to be laughed/mocked. everybody is really taking the thought through and safe route. nobody dares to dream.

Looking back

Looking back in my life, i realise that maybe i've made some mistakes. i wonder why sometimes i just cannot stop thinking of those mistakes that i made. maybe its cuz i'm guilty. maybe cuz it'll always be a stain there, maybe cuz there will be someone that i will eventually have to confess everything to. i've learnt to keep secrets really well. like things i'll never tell a soul. only God will know.

I know i need to look forward, i know i need to look into the future, and to be prepared for a wave that will take me away from the fleet, that will set me apart. "be prepared" deborah says. its true.

The Adventure continues with The Adventurer deciding what will lie ahead.